separation anxiety

      Today is the last day for remedial classes. The long wait is over. Three more days to go and it's summer vacation already. I have summer vacation plans running on my head. It means spending more time with my family at last. I should be happy, right? I don't understand my self.

      Yesterday I texted one of my male co-teacher asking him if I needed to bring my extra clothes for the planned swimming. He texted back and informed me that he will be having his early vacation because of mumps.  I didnt believe him at first. Maybe it's part of his mean jokes again. But it's confirmed, he really had mumps. It's such a sad news for me because I wasn't able to bid him goodbye. Yes, he is mean but he is also one of the most sensitive guys I've ever met. In addition to that, he reminds me of my younger brother. I'll miss you RR!

      Unexpectedly this morning a "new"  teacher was in the faculty room. Again, I felt gloomy because it reminded me of another close friend of mine who will be leaving soon - LH. Aside from being my batchmate, he has been a constant companion and a confidante. I will miss his occasional "topak",  table drumming, YAWNing and even his LWS (last word syndrome e.g. saying Nonito Donaire 50X).

      It is happening again. Separation anxiety. I'm exaggerating.
I remember when I was still in preschool my father used to leave because of call of duty. I used to cry and begged him not go but he would still be lost for a month or perhaps thre. I can't remember exactly. I am a matured person now. I think I should learn to accept that people needs to go somewhere else.  If you won't accept the challenges, you will not experience the real meaning of life. Life is about taking risks. I also took the risks when I was younger. I failed so many times but I never gave up. I always tell my self that life is short. If you won't do it now, you might regret it forever. It is better to do what your heart desires rather than miss the opportunity to be happy. Everyone must learn to move on and that includes me.